Be Vulnerable


Recently I sat in my room thinking about the purpose and style of my blog. Turning to my husband I asked what I should focus on when I have so many different ideas. He said my mind can have many thoughts and many ideas but often they are random in nature.  All I heard when he said “random” was not clearly thought out and not organized. He of course didn’t mean anything other than I have lots of good ideas to write about so why only try and pick one.  Then I went back to my notebook and looked at one thing I had written on what to focus my blog on. The very first sentence I wrote was “To show my vulnerability”.

Then many pages later and a great video by Brené Brown The Power of Vulnerability this post all came together. Admitting I had no clue where to go would mean I would have to be vulnerable to others. Not having a planned out purpose or even solid name for my blog was because I tend to be a random thinker these days. Ideas just come and go but they don’t seem to stick together.

In the video Brené talks about being vulnerable often means expressing empathy. We cannot truly express empathy if we are not vulnerable to others and admit our own faults.  Then she talks about blame. We often blame others or even ourselves rather than being vulnerable and just human. She notes blaming is just a discharge of anger. Which if you ask me sometimes does help us feel better but if we don’t address the real issue it will just come up again and again. Blaming others and not being empathetic is much easier than allowing people to see us for who we are or what we have been through.

So a few thoughts I revisited in my original chicken scratch notes:

To know that you don’t know

To let someone else know you

To give the keys away

To admit you don’t know what you are doing

Well here I am admitting. Exposed to the entire world. But it is alright and I am sure there are many others who feel the same.

If I had not been reminded enough then while working the very next day I was reminded again. Let me take you on a journey:

Computer not working, shut it down, turn back on, forget password over and over and over. The memory was just gone like when you suddenly forget how to spell the word the. I blame myself for not writing it down. I blame my computer for not working. I felt stupid and lost. Then came panic of what others will think. I would have to admit I could not get on my computer because I never thought to write the password down somewhere other than on a document within my computer. I would be missing emails and projects and to do items.

Then reminder number two. I finally remembered the password, got on and then no internet connection. In comes blame, stupid storm causing me issues with internet. Stupid cable company that provides internet service. A brick wall went up. You would have thought I was the only in the world this has ever happened to and admitting it would mean admitting defeat or fault or failure. Although in this situation there were no other parties involved in my debacle, I could not be vulnerable to the fact that these things happen, it will pass and maybe there was reason I was supposed to take a time out.

So why do I say just be vulnerable? Brené says being vulnerable means we are wholehearted. If we are wholehearted then we can connect with people. We live in a world of fear of judgement. Fear of being as she says, “Never ____ enough”, you fill in the word.  If we are vulnerable we will stop worrying so much about what others think because we will know they too have areas of vulnerability. People will trust us because they have seen a glimpse of our wholeheartedness.

How often are you vulnerable with others?


3 thoughts on “Be Vulnerable

  1. I am surprised that you haven’t had more comments on your brave (and nicely written) post. I enjoyed reading it very much. I know that the lack of comments doesn’t mean that your post hasn’t resonated with lots of people, because honest writing always does.
    It’s very hard to show your true self to the world. I try, but it can be scary. I’m looking forward to reading more of your random thoughts as I actually love thoughtful posts.


    • Thank you Margaret for your kind words. It means a lot to know that my random thoughts have inspired others. I hope you will sign up to receive my future blog posts and look forward to reading your comments and insights. Sincerely, Kandace

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